Let go let go let go

It sucks losing people who were main supports and then feeling like you need help

Maybe I can help myself through this. I hate feeling unsafe

I’m so tired and my body hurts. I feel like my attention span is getting shorter these days. I feel like I’m neglecting people and things I need to do.

My grandma’s out of the hospital. I’m afraid to call her because every time she picks up the phone, she can barely breathe and I feel awful for her

It’s wild how people can be addicting. And not talking to them or being around them can feel like a withdrawal.

These are my thoughts from the day

I have an immense amount of guilt when I produce trash, when I don’t respond to people’s messages who want to spread kind words to me on Instagram, and when I acknowledge the privilege I have and the objects and opportunities I have that for whatever reason are not afforded to others.

I’m trying not to give up

I don’t want to do any of this anymore

I’m having lunch with myself and I’m having a really good time ❤️

I’m laying on the floor in my dark, empty new house. How can I support someone else when I haven’t yet learned how to stand up on my own? I’m fucking trying. I just want to feel like someone fucking understands

I’m trying to learn to be my own best friend

I’m not sure why it’s so hard to treat myself the way I try to treat my friends and the people I care about